(Sorry I didn't answer individually)
I appreciate everyone's helping words and nice messages regarding my last post.
I've just had a really rough summer on very deep personal levels that I won't go into. Despite what I could have done to remedy the situation as to going to graduate school and such, I really needed time to decompress after the events following my graduation.
Really the hardest part for me is just seeing it happen for so many other people that I know, but at the same time I don't what they did or how hard they worked and for that I praise them, though a part of them still envy them.
But mostly now I'm simply working on coming to terms with the things I just can't change and need to snap back into reality that bills need to be paid sitting here waiting for opportunity to come knocking isn't going to get anything. I think the thing that makes the most sad is that I thought sacrificing time, sleep, and a social life would help in the long run but now I'm sitting here wishing for another year of college so I could at least have some sorta fun experience instead of sitting inside drawing.
But I can't keeping whining because that's all my summer has been. Whining and wishful thinking, but like my friend, sometimes you just don't make it :/
But that doesn't mean I have to stop drawing. (Which I won't.) I won't give up on the hobby that brings me so much happiness, even if I have to work a job I hate for the rest of my life, at least I have something that makes me smile! (Seriously, drawing is like my saving grace.) And it's not a job that gives your the title of Illustrator / Cartoonist, it's what you describe yourself as….even if you did fail at it professionally like yours truly